Friday, September 27, 2013

Girls, help, secrets, and Christmas

Each week, Feeling Beachie  lists four statements with a blank for you to fill in on your own blogs. Email her your own statements to become a co-host for the week! This week’s co-host is Beth Ann from It’s Just Life– she came up with the last two statements!

This week’s statements:
1) I am so ____ for my _____
2) ____ me, I ______
3) I am _______ at keeping secrets.
4) I ____ that _____ was here already.

My answers:
1) I am so ready for my girls' trip.
2) Help me, I need more hours in the day!
3) I am excellent at keeping secrets. (Keeping confidences is part of my job...)
4) I wish that Christmas was here already. (Kinda, but then again, I'm not ready!)

Friday, September 20, 2013

Fill 'Em In

After a couple of weeks of radio silence (Radio silence?! I think I've been watching too much Alias on Netflix...) I am back at the blogging. Friday Fill In Fun thanks to Feeling Beachie who posts four statements with blanks each Friday for you to use on your own blogs.  This week’s co-host is Lisa from Lisa Writes (and she is also the author of Quake) – she came up with the last two statements!

This week’s statements:
1) I have had the _____ time this_____
2) I can’t believe that _______
3) I feel ______ when I wear ______.
4) Technology is a _______.

My answers:
1) I have had the hardest time this week concentrating at work.
2) I can't believe that it is exactly 2 months until Punky's second birthday.
3) I feel comfortable when I wear jeans.
4) Technology is a necessary evil?

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


It is my favorite time to write and reflect, the early morning, rocking my baby (okay, toddler) hour. The actual time varies- at 2 this morning I was too incoherent. But at 6...

I sit here rocking, knowing these days are numbered. And soon it will be soccer (or softball) practice or (gasp!) dance lessons taking up our every waking moment and not cuddles and stories and giggles. "Up please" will turn into "shut up." *Shudder*

But for now I rock.

I had just gotten dressed after my shower, my mind already working overtime with my mental to-do list for the day. I heard the Punk starting to fuss, so barefoot, hair dripping, and makeup-less I go into her room. I get to her big girl toddler bed and she actually crawls out on her own! I hand her Bear. Punky mumbles a "thank you" and stumbles to the rocker for me to pick her up and rock. Within moments she is asleep in my arms. (Side note: good call on the glider versus traditional rocking chair. Much more practical and comfortable in times like these!)

So while I am now behind schedule in my morning routine, I really don't care. She has this impeccable timing and way of making me slow down and reevaluate what is truly important. And being able to hold her and reassure her is the most important thing at the moment. She is transitioning and though she handled the first day like a pro, I know, underneath is some uncertainty, some stress regarding the changes that have happened recently.

As I sit here rocking, I remember wondering how I was going to mother a little girl. I'm not exactly what you call a "girly girl." For me doing my hair usually means a ponytail, my makeup routine includes a moisturizer with sunscreen, a liquid to powder foundation, mascara, and Chapstick. If I'm feeling really fancy, I'll throw in some eyeliner. Clothes are more about comfort and function than fashion. If I could get away with it I would wear jeans and tank tops year round. With flip flops in the summer and sneakers and a comfy hoodie in winter. Having a daughter was scary business!

But I love it. We play with stuffed animals. She wears bracelets from one of my old Halloween costumes. I know how to French braid her hair. We "dance" to silly music in the kitchen. When it comes time for clothes and makeup, she's got aunts that can help her. If she really does have a passion for dancing, I'm calling my cuz.

And now I find myself wondering, if we are able to have more children, what will I do with a son?